Well I know I am not going to get any sympathy…. but f–k I feel fat! Today’s workout was fun because I did it at home alone and I am always impressed with myself when I can feel like I really pushed myself the same alone as I would have in a group. Although I have noticed one key difference when I workout alone…weirdly enough I have more fun with myself (insert joke).
When I train with a group of people it is a “to the death” show down between myself and my fear of looking like an idiot in front of others. That removes some of the fun – but I know the increase in fear is what makes me take risks and make myself uncomfortable in ways I wouldn’t likely on my own….
But on my own I still find that I push hard, but if I mess up or start to get fatigued and drop the bar, or the kettlebell slips I find myself chuckling at myself and not taking myself too seriously. I occasionally even bust out a dance move during a “rest” period. I NEVER do stuff like that in the presence of others… so I guess I’m kind of enjoying the new coping mechanism I have adopted to my fear of pain…now that I am aware of it it will be interesting to see how I can manipulate it.
Today: Static Holds (SUCK!)
Warmup – usual stuff, but I did 3 minutes of double under practice too. Felt pretty good… the flight simulator would kill me right now….but I haven’t lost it)
Tabata Handstand holds (the easiest of the 3)
5X 8kg turkish get-ups each side (will not use again – too light)
Tabata Bottom Squatholds (starting to suck a bit more)
5 X 12kg turkish getups/side – feels like a good weight for now, challenging but not impossible
Tabata L-Sits (these were HORRIBLE! I used to be good at them!)
5X16kg Turkish getups/side (VERY difficult but did finish)
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